Sometimes hope, faith and love are not enough. Sometimes all you have in life is yourself. People say never turn away from family, friends, or God, because that is all you have in life. But it seems that the things you care for the most fade with time, like all else. My question is why bother at all? Why bother when what should happen, never does? Fate it seems carriers and irony of its own, one that is far more hurtful than mine...damn that's not even fair. But to finish things off, I figure I don't need this anymore because it's not much a use to listen to my ramblings. Later all.

Bri 

I decided I'm done using this I think. Later all.

Bri

I've not been home for anything other than to sleep in the past week. With playing tennis and swimming, and grad parties and friends, I've been all to busy. Ohh and also work, which really isn't all to bad. But tomorrow I get to go paintballing with two of my bosses, which should be fun. And I get to see LIZ at BG, for a house warming party....but anyways I have nothing far too interesting so....

Bri

Jon and Jennie have got to be two of the best people I have ever met. Without a doubt they are almost perfect friends. Jennie's party was awesome. It turned out to be a small, nice group of friends and we mostly sat outside around a fire. It turned out really nice and if you didn't come to surprise Jennie, you should have. So tomorrow is Derek's grad party, which should be nice. I really want to get out paintballing again soon, so if anyone wants to go let me know. And also I'm gana still try to have a pool party out here, but i don't know when, cuz our pool is "broke", it's gata hole in it. But once that gets fixed it'll be ok i hope.

On a different note, today in the mail i got an letter from New York University. Apparently they have a new program for incoming service men. I guess the program is a prep for the military and you can stay the entire school year. But according to the letter it's more so pushed academically than military based. So i wonder if it'd be anything of interest. I've thought about doing this before, but I had to finish up my sophmore year. And everyone says dont push it any faster, and i kinda agree. But then again I would say im 90% sure I'm fit for the military over any other job. IDK, just let me know what you all think about this idea, maybe, just maybe it'll alter my thinkin. I won't lie though, if i make up my mind, it won't at all.

Bri

Got a lot on my mind lately, but who doesn't. Work is all that I do anymore, but can't complain, since I'll have a nice check. Now that school is almost out, the hours on work will pick right up, so you won't be seeing much of me. I took all this week off work, so if anyone wants to hang out, get ahold of me anytime. ohh also, good luck to everyone on exams. and happy b-day to Cass, and Jennie.

Bri